It says it all.

I have successfully moved to a safe area. I worked my ass off to get here, but the really hard part was making the decision to move and sticking to it. I must say I'm rather proud of myself!

I have found that I'm noticing my symptoms more here. In any other circumstances I would consider that a downgrade; however, it really is an improvement.

It did not matter how hard I worked before, I made very little progress. I was so consumed with feeling and being unsafe, that all my hard work was not apparent in any manner.

Moving here, I have discovered that all that hard work did and is paying off, I just could not see it before. I have gone shopping, at least four times, I have gone for a local tour, chatted and had coffee with neighbors, spoken to strangers, gone banking, gone for truck rides just for the hell of it, and even struck up a friendship with a stranger! Unheard of back in Fort!

I still have my extreme symptoms and a long way to go, but now I know I can actually get there. I was feeling rather hopeless before.

The most important thing I learned out of all of this was:

A) you can not heal nor manage symptoms if you are unsafe in an area or relationship.
B) There is hope and a lot's of it.
C) I am more than capable of managing my symptoms and healing!



Isn't that awesome?

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