In other words, your still dragging yourself under at present, coping, existing, though not necessarily progressing. This is normal, do not get worried, nor take it the wrong way, nor assume it means your not working hard on yourself, no implications. Our mind often wants to rest during the trauma and healing process, and its expected. Sometimes we need to rest in order to see what we must do to move forward. You will progress as you see fit, not before basically. Nobody controls you, except you.

What else do I see? I don't see anything, I merely interpret what you see, not what I see. Interpretation is pretty much enough for you to ponder for a while IMHO.