Oh I forgot. I also wanted to comment/ask about this. Does this mean I want to be a kid again, or that I just want to go back to before the shooting? I know I often wish the shooting never happened and that I didn't have PTSD. In fact I have fantasies about that. Hmm, maybe I should write about that in my diary...

Anyways thanks again for doing this, you've given me lots to think about.