*raises hand slightly* My parents have sent me to many therapists because I tended to see things that were not there... I rarely talk about it anymore because most people look at me funny and I just pretend it is all part some story I'm working on... I used to think that I had one foot in a dream world and learned to not talk about what I saw or they would think I was even more crazy then before. Alot of that slowed down as I got older, but I still remember some of the strangeness from when I was younger and it makes me feel confused and even more insane then before. So I stick with the notion that this is just part of being a writer/artist and try to cope as best that I can and keep things to my stories so I don't ended up locked away for the third time in my life...

The one thing that makes me feel better is the fact that I got my newest psycho doctor to admit that there is no way he can prove that what I'm seeing is not really there. I'm not sure why I consider this a victory, but my doc has taken an extreme interest in my novel about just this subject and it worries me alittle...

jaa ne

Kat