I've been on disablity since I was 18 and can't seem to work because my PTSD affects me in severe ways around people that the one time I tried to help out a friend who owned a book store I curled up in a ball and started crying from just staring at the cash machine.

I consider myself self employed, but my wife says otherwise. I used to run my own publishing company for comics and art, which ran for 5 years before I had a major collapse and ended up in major debt, which has been finally cleared up, and have been told by my doctor that he wants me to stay away publishing anymore. So now I just run a couple of websites for writing and forums for gay youth and I review anime/manga online. I also write lengthy novels that I'm considering publishing, but everyone thinks that would be a bad idea and no one thinks that I could handle the presure of publishing... Even if it is another publishing company in charge of the hard parts*sighs* After a 3 year break from working on anything other then writing I finally want to get back to hosting lectures at conventions, which I also did for a number of years, but again am told I won't be able to handle it and it is driving me crazy and it is beginning to make me feel even more like a failure so I guess I'll forever be an insane disablied writer/artist holding on to dreams that would never happen. *sighs*

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Kat