Well I received my learner's permit (for driving) today. I passed my written driving test which means I can begin to practice driving officially now, even on the highway and in town. I have to practice obviously, before I am allowed to take my actual driving test. Things are far too hectic today, but Uncle promises to take me out tomorrow for a bit, and I'm very excited about it.

I have had a phobia about driving ever since my dad was teaching me to drive. That was shortly before he shot my family and I, so up until this point I have associated driving with the trauma. Then recently I was also feeling kind of weird and guilty about driving because Brian died from driving while intoxicated. I haven't wanted my family worrying about me doing something foolish. It's took a lot of effort to get up the nerve to even take the written test. I am nervous about the actual driving as well, but I have driven some of our machinery here on the acreage so I'm hoping that will help. I still have a long way to go but just taking and passing the written test finally has encouraged me.