There isn't much that calms me down and that is a major problem with me. I usually have to let things pass and blow over, hoping that they will pass quickly and not stay around too long. If I relax too much I've found things start seeping into my mind and I ended up surrounded by weirdness instead of it going away. I'm not sure why that is. I mean I love to relax in the tub, but if I let my guard down I start seeing strange things so I feel I need to keep a bit of a barrier up at all times. Can never fully relax. I'm only been on one vacation in my life and that bothers my doctor. We have been trying to find something that relaxes me but does not cause strange affects for years now.

Well, thanks for the advice. I guess that means that I'll probably have to live with this until the move at the very least... god I hope the next month or so go by smoothly, because I don't think I can stand anymore surprised.

jaa ne

Kat