Thank you Anthony and Kerri-Ann--
Your guidance and presence is comforting.
I must admit that I have become overwhelmed with fear-- we are not married yet, but my beloved is whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am so scared to lose him. Unlike being married, there is no sense of relationship 'security' or 'duty', except that which I have in my heart. So, it is challenging to threaten him with my leaving, as his pushing me away ways may just want me to. In fact he says they do. Our relationship is so incredible, yet since he sees the pain in me he is having a hard time differentiating PTSD from us.
Does "I put up a thick wall overthere. Now I just can't break it down. I can't let anyone close to me" sound familiar Anthony? That is a way in which he has been affected.
I want to get him on here to talk with you, but I have to be so careful in my ways of offering help, as he only does this stuff for me, not because he feels like he needs help. Again, as far as he is concerned this is how it will always be. Any suggestions?
Thanks so much!!!
Manhattan