I am still on Post at the moment. They have done a MEB on me, and it came back that I will be retired, with a rating of 30%. So now I am waiting on orders to get released. To me everything is a stressor; seeing the Uniform, seeing a new private w/o a combat patch, or a high ranking officer w/o a combat patch... hearing the artillery rounds, the thunder from the storms we have been having...it just pushes my anger button automatically. I am currently on Remeron, Propanolol, Prozac and Depakote. I can't remember when I had a good nights sleep. I dread going to sleep at night, cause it's like I enter another world and then get sent back in Iraq- fighting all over over again. I don't like to go outside my own house cause I am constantly looking around, trying to watch everything that is going on, looking for something that would harm me and my family. I haven't driven a car since I've been back either... everything moves too damn fast for me, and chunks of rock on the side of the road or trash on the side of the road- scares the hell out of me. I can't let it go, which the Doc said is the hardest task that I must accomplish.