I agree with Anthony, kind of what I was trying to say but couldn't spit out!

Its ultimately down to Evie and even then its not that simple. You can want to get better and be in the right environment to do it but sometimes you cant rush the process. I sometimes get the most from my therapist sessions after the event. When I accept what's been said and understand things more and get those 'light bulb' moments when stuff just makes sense. I get those moments when the pressure's off usually.