The past two days were very hard on me. I would love to write about it in here and just vent but don't know if I am allowed to write about someone else threatening suicide and what I went through subsequently. Am I? I am going to ask this in the ptsd forum and hopefully we can give me a look at the ground rules for this. I went through so many tears that I am sick. I have trots terribly, and my headache is unreal. Could not sleep and like a crutch drank coffee and took NoDoz today, I am not going off my change of lifestyle diet, just need any help I can get today so call it a treat. By the way, on a better note, clothes are mega loose now, cannot wear pants I wore in NY they will fall to my ankles, still have not gotten on a scale, and probably won't but definately took off a substantial amount, no turning back on this one.