Wendy, amost 3 weeks now. Need a couple more days to be there.

Had a completely panic attack free day here today. Insomnia still kicking my ass and some anxiety... But I found a good distraction, btw I really don't condone distracting but it was a nice needed break. I could breathe all day! It is getting better, but I sure am ready to go back home to my honey. I think he will be tickled to get a new woman back after I finish camping.

After I get home y'all will get a little break from me, I broke my damn lap top again! Grrr. Alomost 5:30 AM, I need to go try to sleep.

Again, thank you all and yes, this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Never want to revisit this ugly road of addiction. I don't want to see others have to do this either, it is a real eye opener. You think you know it hurts, and then you see how much it can.