The negative thinking style is a hard thing to get over, I see it in many different aspects of my life and it is always my first instinct, so you are totally right on there. When you first started to change that did it take alot out of you? Meaning, did you have to rest and not have the physical or emotional energy to do anything else. I find myself just worn out from trying to change those thoughts around to positive self talk. It is a huge struggle sometimes to wrap my mind around the fact that the negative image is wrong and that I am wrong, how could I be wrong? It is all so crazy and like I said it will take the wind out of my sails often. I do see that i am getting better with it though, it is just practice, practice, practice. What else do I have to work on? I have opened up about my trauma's here, in therapy we are still going through them though and that gets disturbing but i already see that i am looking at things from a different perspective, my therp. is impressed by that. I do it really without even realizing it anymore although I don't always have a positive outcome.

As for the assertive personality, that I have to work on because i am either hot or cold. I can either walk away and shut down or a get in ther persons face and get loud, when that happens sometimes I don't even remember the incident. Truly people will tell me i was scary and I am thinking all I did was get a little mad at someone and let them know that. That is annoying because I don't see it, how can I see that?