Oh and a new turn... I could give a rat's ass drugs made me fat now. I do care about getting fat health wise (was a big shocker when I saw some recent photos of me from camping but I still felt good looking at it) but when I was tiny and trim I was more self concious than I am now being a plus size! I used to be embarrassed in shorts when petite and cute... and looking at old photos I should have been strutting, and now I bought shorts AND a SKIRT (never did that)! But now I am thinking way less of what others may think and realizing the way I look now so do most. Why did I never see it before? I never realized I was so different looking when I was a size zero. I even bought a sleeveless shirt! Me and my chubby arms LOL, and I LOVE it. I am so much more comfortable in my skin.

I feel now what they say... Big and Beautiful. If I get skinny again world watch out! I will be walking around nakedy LOL. I am just beaming with life. I can't wait for my husband to see me after my vacation. To live with this attitudde. I could do and feel this in my home before a long time ago, but to feel it now, is so amazing, as you can tell since I keep going on! He has not seen this for so so long. He will finally be getting the woman he feel in love with (part) back. I think we are both going to be doing worlds better. With me like this his work did much better and kids were happier, everyone will be better for this! Even the annoying parts like now LOL.