Awakening: Surprise, surprise. Isn't it great how others can share and we sometimes can relate so well. It still pleasantly stuns me when this happens with me. Usually, my mouth drops open, I think to myself something along the lines of WTH'eck, .......is this for real? And, just for a moment I question whether or not I am dreaming.
Then, within a moment, I'm assured it's real and for me I understand it as God working through people.
(And, in many, many ways and forms and shapes; My God seems to work through others whom suffer PTSD and will still seek help and give it all they know how, as to not resign from life.
And, even people who live daily untreated PTSD, who attempt all sorts of efforts to help themselves in someway or another, but don't yet know enough to be checked for this diagnoses; I've met people personally in life like that that share, or that I observe, and that I can so understand.)
Anyhow, after I reassure myself that what I've read and/or heard is for real, And, I can relate.........It's like Wow! And, I pers. am energized, my mood has improved and I'm like dancing through much of the rest of that day, sometimes even longer, while reflecting and reminding myself:
• I am not alone!
• I am really no longer alone!
• Other's know!
• I'm not a freak!
• There is even more hope than I had dreamed!
• Others have hope, too!
• Hell' I can, and we can do this!
• I can get through, move past and grow from any and all of my unneccessary pain from my past!
Awakening, didn't mean to be long winded here and all, it's just that in attempting to thank you for your response to mine, you've awoken my hope and motivation even more deeply.
[suspecting that this hope I'm feeling is not going to go over well with some other folk. Throughout my life, I been made all to aware of countless patterns of faulty and/or negative thinking. I've even battled against others trying to impose their negative and hopeless way of thinking upon me, as if they knew what was best for me, or would suggest, that I was full of sh't, in thinking hopefully. There is always cynicism, contempt prior to investigation, petty jealousies, and on an on an on and on. And, for each one on that list is a contradictory positive way of looking at anything. -this here all just leads me into my trauma which I'll examine and discuss elsewhere]......Sorry about that!
THANK YOU so much too Awakening for even greater hope and motivation.
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She-Cat: The beauty of me seeing once again that there is life beyond trauma and with PTSD, is that I once believed in this. Only, I duped myself into believing then that some miracle had occurred and never again would I have to experience my PTSD. I thought is was gone, as I didn't understand well, or know of the brain imbalance.
I do remember though that it was through my believing, (despite all odds against me) and my hard work and persistence that I went from the depths of my pers. hell and to working upon my pers. recovery and then a few yrs. later met my husb. and since, and through some struggles, we've built a good friendship, a continually developing loving marriage and our family and home, and I can safely and diligently continue healing and learning more improved ways of coping.
She Cat thank you so very much for this:
"Be proud, wear that in daily life, and it will show through......Be kind to yourself, praise yourself for the work that you have done, and continue to do.....You have earned it....." -She Cat
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