This process of recovery sure gets crazy!!! It helps me to know those four steps...I really haven't able to progress in facing my Trauma since that day this past May when my life was threatened....my therapy sessions seem to center on what I can do to get rid of these problems here...working on getting myself moved to a better place that is quieter...letters have been sent [2-from my psychodoc & 1 from my therapist] ....still no news from the housing authority about their response to these letters!!!! also about all the PTSD symptoms that are running amok!!!! :angry-fla I want to DEAL WITH THE ORIGIONAL TRAUMAS...I am really pissed that I'm not having the opportunity to do this work!!!!! I am well aware of the pain that dealing with it will cause....still my calming my symptoms depends on doing that work!!! Any suggestions??? .....wildfirewildone
.........PEACE

p.s. I am going to get away this weekend to go camping with my son for my 52 birthday weekend!!!
You can sure bet that I'll be hugging a few trees!!! Then on Sunday we will go horseback riding--my FAVORITE thing to do on this planet!!! I will be driving 4 hours to get down there [..on the road again....]!!!! I do take extra time to stop and stretch my legs when I start to feel a litle weary...boy...GIVE ME THAT COUNTRYSIDE!!!!

I still know that all this crap will be waiting for me when I get home....won't be thinking about that while I'm gone...I am concerned how long the euphoria from that time away will get me through this crap!!!! once I have to start dealing with it once again???? I certainly hope that I don't end up in the hospital shortly after I return....but if there's no action on any of this I feel I just may CRASH!!! [sickening thought=this would be more proof of the stress I'm under and it could be further leverage to getting a new SAFER place...] BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE LOCKED UP!!!