Well done for talking to your therapist Awakening... :claps:We know this stuff is harder than most could know. I'm sorry you are feeling the pain from it though.

I get the overwhelming sadness, unability/unwillingness to cry. I have been told by not crying, it brings on the tension which hurts your heart, chest, throat, body, stomach... I often feel like I'm literally being strangled. The powerlessness and helplessness is awful.

Relaxation is always a good thing. It is also important to remember that processing happens after therapy sessions, as well as during, and that what you are going through is natural and to be expected... but it will pass. If it starts to feel too much, hang on to that. Everything is transient when it comes to emotion, we rarely feel the same emotion, all day long, every day.

I am a hypocrite for passing on advice that I rarely take myself, but what about if you just let it out? Have a cry?? A lot of what you describe sounds like intense emotion that is being let out the only way your mind and body can, through physical symptoms, as well as depression...

But you have to find your own ways of processing things and dealing with the aftermath, so it is about you doing what you think is best for you.

I hope things ease up a bit soon for you.

Lisa.