Well, I don't know how to help with most of the symptoms. Most of mine went away on their own once I went OFF the drugs prescribed to me, and then I gradually took charge of most of my life one tiny baby step at a time. Mostly, by using lists of what I wanted to accomplish and how I was going to do it.

I read a lot of self help books, and I did have some counselling, but it went terribly...not like yours did, I just HATED the counsellor, and hate was a mild word for what I wanted to do to her, so I quit.

But, what DID work really really well for me when I felt like you did was to go to the humane society. I didn't have a pet at that time, so I'd go and take a dog on a leash and walk and walk on the trails they have. Or, I'd take a cat into the cat-room and hold it and tell it whatever I wanted to say, but there was no one to say it to.

When that didn't ease some of the pain I'd hum, or put on sad music. THEN I'd cry (and although I have never ever felt better after crying emotionally, physically sometimes I did.)

If you're musically inclined this may be an outlet for you. Just don't let it backfire - I played piano for over 18 years of my life - and tried to play right after my trauma happened. I have not attempted to play since that night, nor do I ever expect to again. But if your trauma is not recent, then I should think it would be ok. Oh, and getting angry helped, because it's easier for me to be angry than it is for me to be sad. Good luck. I'm sure you will find something that will help you learn to deal with your emotions. :)