I am a husband with three kids and a wife with ptsd. I have basically been a single father for about 3 months. I find it very difficult to motivate myself to clean my house and take care of my kids. Today all I could do was to sit back and watch them trash the house. I didn't care either. I want my house to be clean but I am having a lot of depression and anxiety when I think about all the work that needs to get done. I don't want to neglect my kids, but at times I feel I will explode and start yelling and that is not what I want to do. How does one find the strength to just put aside emotions so strong in inhibits them from doing anything. I feel there is so much to do that I don't know where to start.

I do have days where a can chug a redbull and actually get something done.

Dan