:frown:This past week has been pretty much absolute hell!!! After being up all night Thursday crying and crying hugging my stuffed bunny as the pain hung on all night...out of sheer exhaustion...I fell asleep at 6AM...after taking more of Ex-tra strength tylenol again....When I woke later in the day I called the dentist to get in to see him....only to be told they are closed on Fridays....CRAP!!!....made appointment for Monday....Later around 7 pm the pain in my mouth increased once again...OUCH!!! So about 10pm I decided to go to the local ER as I did not want to spend the whole night up in agony again....I was told that I had a virus infection [that day I had found two very sore spots on my upper gum] It was from the herpes virus but not the one transmitted by sex...They gave me a rinse to anesthetize my gum and sent some home with me along with 4 tabs of vicodin...one to take when I got home....they also started me on an antibiotic as my cheek was swollen and red....I took the vicodin when I got home and swished my mouth again.....NOTHING got better!!...Enormous pain again ALL night AGAIN!!!! So I was up and crying into my bunny once again all night till 4am when I took the 2nd vicodin.....then finally got to sleep....forgot to take vicodin at an even spaced time sooo the pain got away from me AGAIN....and I was up most of Sat. night....what a BITCH!!!:boxing: The next night I got to sleep at 2am....slowly have been recovering....Unfortunately all this physical pain started some flashbacks and nightmares...Whenever I'm in physical pain my nervous system goes haywire and the PTSD symptoms increase....Today I was quite a bit better but had a few suicidal thoughts transverse my mind which is no picnic but I don't act on them anymore...I forced myself to do the laundry that had needed to be done for 3 days....I hate being alone at times like these...Really feeling depressed....will see my T tonight at 6pm....I'm going to try and get some sleep:sleeping:....SEEKING THE PEACE