I can find no words to express my thanks for the right on responses from you 3 guys. This one has brought tears to my eyes. It has allowed me to sit back and cry. It has allowed me to mourn the loss of my kitty. I plan on doing nothing but pampering myself and allowing the tears to flow (which is the best emotional release) as soon as I get done with all of my Mom's appointments today(Thursday). I need a small breakdown, I've earned a small breakdown and quite frankly, I'm looking forward to a small breakdown. Can I spend my breakdown in bed, or do I have to stay somewhat together?

I know that I had decided to start sheltering kittens again, but it has become extremely apparent to me that Mom is going to use up that available time. I must admit that I forgot just how much work was really involved with the kittens. This has made me a little sad too, cuz I do enjoy sheltering, but, alas, I just can't do it anymore.

I just seem to sit and stare at this screen sometimes. No thoughts, no ideas, no desires or interests. Guess I AM depressed. OK, well, this to shall pass. I know what it is and how to handle it so wish me luck, stay in touch and I will keep you posted

Most of all THANX guys. I do need you and when I do you are there