I so wish they gave out handbooks at the hospital when you bring home your first child.. HOW TO BE A PARENT! LOL I'll never understand how one of the most important jobs in life we could have "being a parent" doesn't come with directions!! It seems like there are alwase things that come up and we do what we think - feel is best.. never knowing if it is or not! Guess thats just part of being a parent.. I do think when you love the child and you do the best you possibly can.. then it will all work out in the end. There is no "right" or "wrong" way to do things when your unsure.. just have to go with what you feel is right! Hope everything gets better soon!