I have tried going to, get this, to role play areas and "role playing" out what I went though.

As someone that was Tortured, I try and see Myself have having the power, and not being a victim. I "roleplay" being the Torturer. I try My best to describe in detail what I see in My mind then type it out.

what kind of light is around?
is the floor stone or wooden?
if wooden does it creak in sections as I walk across the floor?
how am I dressed?
what do I smell?
what do I hear?
who is with Me?
how tall am I?
how much do I weigh?
what am I doing to the person?

This way it helps Me confort what I went though. it's My way of facing My trama.