I feel good tonight. I really do. It doesn't mean that I'm going to fall fast asleep, bc I'm not always in control of shutting down my mind for the evening,

..... (it will be the livingroom couch tonight, bc I must wake up bright and early, for tommorrow's 1st day back to school for children, and I simply cannot wake and mobilize in time if I sleep in my bed. It's far, far too comfortable for that kind of sh't!) (LOL)......

but hey, ...perhaps I can lay there and think positively tonight, as opposed to negatively, which was once the unavoidable norm for me, full of despair and terror.

I know I'll have nights, perhaps many, like this again and I can only hope my husb. and children, on the following day, will forgive me for those nights, but hey, what's the use in me fretting before it even comes about.

This is also the attitude I'm practicing holding with, and regarding my progressive loss of vision, ie. progressive ocular disease,

..............As well as, the attitude I'm really challenged to hold onto regarding me next speaking and meeting with, and confronting my mother.

Hope