thank You for everyones positive comments. We are seeing each other again on friday. A movie night. I am very excited again but I know he is curious about a few things. We have not had the chance for me to tell him things....in another thread i wrote about that too. How much is too much? How much is too little?

I never thought i would be in this situation but he makes me laugh and smile. He has a great sense of humour and he calls me beautiful ( almost makes me cry when he says it.....almost, really....NOW THEN I would surely look like a freak then. AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH All so ridiculous! He opens my doors!!! Pulls my chair out!!! Helps me walk if the road is bumpy because of my back i tend to lose balace quickly!!!! Just really nice, gentle, kind eyes, a great father to his kids, the best dimples. Anyway..I just don't want to mess this up.........i know before when I started to get close, I shut off! I didn't realize that was what I was doing at the time but with therapy i have realized that! I don't know how to let anyone in.thats the problem. I get too close and just feel like .............I am not sure what I am feeling.I guess it is just not worthy or not good enough but now I know I am. That will be the difference in this relationship, I will try to let him in and i will beleive that i should be treated with respect and dignity, compassion, empathy and understanding because i am a good person and i deserve it.
I just hope he stays the same way he has been.i know everyone has good and bad days but just stay kind and gentle!