Thank you she cat and sapper for your inputs. These are the main issues I am dealing with at the moment. Inability of emotional attachement due to PTSD or just infidelity, plain and simple. I am also not able to talk to him about that as he does not want to confront himself with any wrongdoings. Can this behaviour be due to PTSD? I am reading as much as I can about PTSD and sometimes I think YES, but then at the same time I get so angry. But of course I can not confront him with my anger and pain as he is not able to deal with the feelings of others just himself...