Update:

Well, apparantly she was having a good day yesterday. She was very flirty and friendly with me at work. On our morning break it ended up just being us 2 and she said she was sorry for everything, got teary eyed.

I told her there were many things I wanted to say to her, but don't wnat to put undue pressure on her and still need to respect her space to I wouldn't go into them. I did say that I had been researching PTSD, and I understand more about it now.

We shared a hug, and before we walked back into the building she stopped me to give me a good kiss.

Later after work I helped her pick out some revenge toys for a co-worker who played a practical joke on her and after that we also shared another kiss.

I had told her when she was ready I wanted to talk more and left it at that.

I'm trying to keep perspective that this doesn't change anything really. It just means that she had a good day, and I am feeling a bit more secure that we can work through this. Today at work I am going to pretend like yesterday didn't happen and keep things friendly but short and let her maintain whatever pace she is comfortable with.

It's very hard...because it would be so easy just to fall back into acting like everything is fine again and the storm has passed. It's tough to reign myself in and not just jump back in. Yesterday felt really good, really normal. I want that back so much.

It has only been a week though.