Your very welcome, and its people like yourself that makes this place a good stop to meet up, make friends, talk turkey and most importantly, able to vent with people who know exactly what your talking about. This was something I had to do, for myself, when I was doing my PTSD course (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) to help me come to terms with what has gone on inside my head, and the reactions and affects upon me.

Everyone here not only helps themselves, but helps others, by letting them know their not alone. Everyone here makes this place... which is really good for us all honestly.

That is fair enough with the family thing, totally agree with you, especially as the cause of your trauma. And your right, your probably better to leave that one alone until you get yourself through all the tough stuff first. I forgot about that bit in your first post... sorry.

I found out who my true friends where when I got PTSD, and from hundreds, I went down to only a couple, who I can really trust and talk with, and didn't judge me any different, say anything behind my back and so forth... if they have something to say, they say it to me, not behind me... which is what friends are all about for me.

I'm sure you will have a couple hanging around who do want to help you, but are more in the dark than you, as they don't understand, nor know how to help you. In fact, what they probably need to know is, they don't need to help you, just simply be your friend. Friends listen, friends give advice, friends are just there when you really need them. All of my true friends asked me what was going on, as they where generally concerned, and didn't just want to know for gossip reasons. They told others to shutup and don't talk about things they know nothing about, when I wasn't their to fend for myself.

Anyway, to the good stuff. What part of England are you in? I have a couple of mates in London who often tell me its bloody cold their.