I think I'm entitled to feel hurt, frustrated, and still angry after today's unneccessary hurt...

...and once again, and now that today has passed, Hopeful and all at the same time.

Except my hope doesn't have to include EVERYTHING, that perhaps it once did.

First and foremost my hope includes healing from my traumas, continually learning, applying coping skills and managing my PTSD and one day being of service to others.

And, let me not exclude, that my hope is about not given up on my children and no matter what, sharing good values through my example, and assuring them that through whatever crap life can sometimes throw, that I love ******* & ******, and deeply.

Hope