I'm feeling really hopeful again and despite anything or everything, bc I am taking right actions immediately following a bout of, or fall into enorm. PTSD stress, and despite how I feel;

My Action and/or Risks always pays off one way or the other, and if only in accepting No as an answer, or coming to consider and regard another's point of view.

In the last two days, I've taken numerous risks. I mean real, scary risks, and I've grown and/or survived every one of them.

Sometimes, when and if I remember, or am helped to remember, I can consider almost everyone of my fears as nothing more than the boogey-man. You know the creature or monster, that was suppose to exist under our bed, or in our closets, but that was absolutely NEVER...EVER there. That guy. He's nothing more than a figment of my overactive imagination now and resulting from past traumas.

The key for me to always remember, is that my trauma is in my past, and Not in my present. And, though, with too great of triggers or stress, I can always still suffer flashbacks, experiences of reliving traumatic events and intense negativity, if I can and do take some right actions ASAP, and minimize the stress enough to see clearly once again, I again quickly recover to a place where I can acknowledge. 'Oh yeah' it's only the boogeyman,' and not a real threat, nor going to unfold in the present as it always did in my past.

My life has changed. My world is different and though I believe I must still get it all out': my once disowned and suppressed past, as well as, any great difficulties of my present, none of this still changes anything.

And, the truth is my life is good, and I am far much better off now mental health wise, than I was nearly a yr. ago. Though it's not what I had once dreamnt of (and that being perfect and living a life of perfection). My life is truly darn' good, and when problems or conflicts arise, I'll be there and willing and able to do my part to help resolve them.

Very much Hopeful and recently have learned a great deal. Though I can't ever put all my new lessons for life and paradigm shifts into text, nor need to, I will be forever grateful for Anthony, and all of you who support this forum through helping yourselves, supporting/helping each other and putting your healing all into Action, in your families, your work and in your lives. And, yes there is pain and error and more pain and error ahead for all of us, and our families; This is life, but the rewards of this kind of pain, sweat and hardwork is Life for us PTSD sufferers, and with it comes many surprises and joys.

And, far, far, far more sweeter then resigning ourselves to complete unlifting despair.

Hope