Zam,

You are doing good in writing it out and getting it out in the open. I can see and feel that little boy that was you. I can feel it in what you write. Keep writing because the more you feel and the harder it gets the closer you are to healing. I know that sounds weird, but I really believe it. Just make sure and take gentle care of yourself the best you can. I know how hard a divorce can be too. Its kind of like when you take two pieces of paper and glue them together and let the glue dry then try to separate the two pieces of paper. They both get torn to smitherines. That's what a divorce is, IMHO. Keep writing. Regards, Marilyn S.