Hello Mayhem,

You are doing a great job writing out the trauma you experienced. I have an acquaintence of mine whom I went to college with who has been deployed in the current war two times. I remember him before the war, a young sturdy built Kansas man. He had a sparkle of pride in his eyes and a desire to serve his nation. When he came back the first time the fire in his eyes was gone and he spoke of the war as hell on earth where you are either bored to death and smothering, or scared for your life or the life of others. He told many stories that quickly revealed why the sparkle had gone from his eyes. I just want to say, all Marines are American Heros!!!!!!!!! My son plays with GI Joes, and when he does I always take the opportunity to tell him about the men in our US Armed Forces. I am sorry that you have had to experience and endure such horrible trauma. My step dad is a Vietnam Vet. He talks to me alot about his experiences. Though my situation is different I do know what its like to fear for my life and I do empathize with you. Keep up the good work and take care. Marilyn S.