Summer of 1996

I am married to my 1st husband who has just decided to leave me for one of my college friends. He still has the keys to the house. My daughters and I were still living in the huge house he and I had bought 6 months before. It was a new house but because of its size it was very lonely and very creepy. My daughters were in bed sleeping when I heard the key turn the knob. I knew it was him but had no idea why he was coming back to the house at 1AM. He came into the bedroom with a look of hate on his face. He immediately came toward me in the bed and grabbed my hair. He spit in my face while holding my head back. He grabbed my throat and began choking me. I didn't even struggle. His hands were oily. After grabbing my neck he stopped choking me and whispered in my ear to move onto my stomach. I did and when I did he immediately and very abruptly shoved his fist up my rectum. It hurt so bad, worse than childbirth! I felt the pain stream up my back side and all the way up my back but the more I tightened the worse it hurt because he would not take his fist out. I begged him to please take it out and he said shut up bitch. I then started wiggling. He finally relented and pulled his fist out. This incident caused me permanent damage to my rectum and the tissue between the rectum and the vagina, I bled bad for about ten minutes then for several days after that I had residual bleeding.