Matt's therapist called this afternoon. They (his therapist along with the psychiatrist) would like to hospitalize Matt for three weeks for a full physical and mental assessment.

They would be doing MRI's, CAT scans, EEG's, blood work, along with all the Mental Health assessments.

They would just be putting him on an adolescent ward in the hospital.. not a mental health ward.

Needless to say, I didn't react well to it. So his therapist is calling back tomorrow so that I can try to digest this.

I had to have Ryan talk to Matt about it.. as I've been bawling since 2. Matt is all for it. Ryan feels it's positive and that they probably also want to separate us since we trigger each other.

(basically Ryan came whipping over and talked to Matt for me.. and reminded me to take an Ativan... I'm still freaking crying...)

I've barely been apart from Matt for more than a night. This is so hard.. what the hell am I going to do without him here?

I'm so worried. Is this positive? Is it negative? What if he freaks out? Will they drug him? What if they decide he needs a residential program and want him to go there? (the RP is long term.. like a group home for teens with issues.)

I need you guys to give some input here. As with PTSD and being a very over-protective mom, I'm not thinking too clearly. And I want what is best for him.. not for me.

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