bec...I wish I had words of wisdom for you or that we were a bit closer. i feel for you right now.
All of the tests seem like a good thing.....to find out exactly how they can help him...I think. It is very good that Matt is "all for it" and you also have all of our support and Ryan as well now...that is positive.
I am sorry that you guys trigger each other, that must be so hard. I truly know how it feels to not feel in control of things with your child but at least they are trying to get him really good care...right?
You mentioned how upset you are.......you will be Ok without him...you can do this....look how much you have endured and survived up until today. You don't know if the residential program will even be an option at this point...right? I know i can say it and I realize, easier said than done but deal with it if and when the time comes. I think the fact that there seems to be a heck of a lot more positive support in your life is a good thing and Matt will get the proper treatment he deserves so that you both can heal. You did not cause this and it is not your fault, I hope you know that. Bottom line...you DO only want what is best for him and you are doing everything you can, including moving to get the proper treatment....maybe it will be beneficial for the both of you! You can visit him too, right.
i think it is positive...just research the facility ( I am sure you have already ) to help you also feel safe and secure with your decision. I hope this helped a bit. Take Care!
Pand