You feel life is confusing at present, a little bumpy though progressing even though you may find it difficult at times. Whilst you are trusting within sexual intimacy, you feel as though it takes all your energy and focus to maintain that trust. You are aware of your sexual intimacy problems, likely from a male. You feel your support systems are healing, whether your healing from the lack of past support or healing presently from your current situation, support is healing within you. Your support has been pretty poor, hence your very low self esteem demonstrated. Your fooling yourself surrounding commitment, because whilst you believe your commitment is great, you have been victimized surrounding commitment, and you demonstrate commitment to someone or something else. You biggest problem at present is the feeling of victimization by a male. You envisage a future, though certainly unsure at this stage.