By George, I think I have it too, and it being, just what this process takes !

......just thinking and feeling optimistic, never said I wasn't in emot. pain and/or that I don't know the meaning of suffering trauma.

I know we all know, ...........and all to well the meaning of deep despair and continuing suffering from our trauma(s). So when I find natural relief and/or some release from it, I'm going to acknowledge it, feel good and take it from there.................

Hope