Jods,

I second the hug. Just a hug and if you say any thing, just say I am here for you if you want to talk about it. I am having a very rough day and ripped everyone a new today. My husband went to bed and just said baby if you need to talk wake me up, I am here for you. I am not going to, but it was nice just to know he is there. But some of the crap that has spewed from my mouth when he prods I am schocked he still inquires! Some guys just don't learn I guess :)

My husband goes to my sessions and normally takes the children to the park. I am always a total basket case coming out. Some times I want to talk, other times I tell everyone in the car to shut up and I want nothing but pure silence for the over an hour drive home. I don't think you can avoid looking and feeling like crap because so much is being disected on what landed you there to begin with. When you look at the issues under a microscope and they pull them apart and try to help you learn to process it all over again, but with a therapist you have someone guiding you through the steps to process it in a more constructive healthy way. But you are left feeling and reliving the horrors all over up close and personal.

It is something he will have to for the most part do for himself, and sometimes he may want to let it out, but don't expect it or push it. Right now it is hard to comprehend your own thoughts and feelings going through threapy, muchless trying to express it a way another would understand, though Anthony is uncanny with that... Hell, when I can't make sense of what I am thinking and feeling I have to come here because he puts it in a way I get. I think I may be paying the wrong guy for my threapy sometimes!