hi blue...i also tried to push my wife away...afraid to ruin her life...i soon realised i had abandoned all my previous friends,and had absolutely no one to turn to...i was back in a flash,very pleased she hadnt given up on me....i soon realised not to shun anyone who truely cares.....no two cases are the same,but heres hoping that things workout for you...its obvious to me you are genuinely in love and very caring for your man...