New entry into my diary!!!! It will soon be just 10 weeks since the big move!!! This should put lots of interesting shit into my new entry. As if all the "stuff" I alredy have to deal with, I've now added more stress than ever into my disfunctional self! What on earth made me think that I was capable enough to care for, live with or be responsible for my mother. I can barely care for myself. I am in the middle of a preety intense attack of all my junk at the same time. Can't seem to wake enough to get out of bed, mom thinks I'm tking to many meds OR not taking them at all. She's freaked out over my melt down! I'm freaked out over my melt down and falling back into my really bad habit of EATING, and Eating and EATING!!! Anything and everything. This is my comfort. I am so miserable right now. I am actually home sick. I've got all my things here in my new place but it is not the same at all. I want this move to work for my mom's sake but I am not honoring myself right now. I realize this is not good, but I really don't know who to get myself out of this cycle I 'm in. Well, this was enlightening!!!!