Zam,

You say that you have hit the bottom. Well that's actually pretty good, because now the only way out is UP!!! Now is when you really have to fight for you. You're here, you're in therapy, and you're talking...All good things.....

Your post is not entirely negative either. I find some really good positive things in it.

You are a good dad. This shows that you are supportive, loving, caring.....

You coach your kids soccer team. You are not totally isolating yourself.

You want to work at getting another degree. You have goals.

You have your kids... They are probably the glue that keeps your world together, and you are loving every bit of them....Good job.....

Just remember to have some time for you....You are doing great.


By the way.....You were a kid when your mother beat you.....Kids are powerless over their abusers.....

Wen