Mac, you have done a sensational job mate at getting your dosage down, and as you now know, fu*kin doctors think the solution for everything is medication. I won't start on this, because it is a real big bug in my arse. All I will say, is that yes, the arsewipe companies who make the shit do make it so you are addicted too it, hence you continue buying it, your body craves it, they continue getting fatter and richer at everyone elses poor diminishing health.

My advice... go and see a naturopath / homeopath and get natural treatments for your symptoms. Continue educating yourself and learning coping techniques, then you can just kick all the medication out of your life. Start a fitness campaign and good eating. Start walking 100 meters each day (as your health is poor), after one week, increase it to 200 meters, and continue like that each week. Advice, go see a personal trainer and ever cardiologist, get them to structure a routine for you to get back into exercise. Give yourself a good year mate, don't be hard on yourself, at which point you will develop routine and fitness back again, thus getting rid of the diabetes hopefully (if type 2), regain your body under control so you are more happy with your looks, this will fix your depressive state then so no medication would be required for that, and the list goes on.

Active choice mate, only you can make it and stick with it. Say fu*kit, go down hill... Say this shit isn't taking you down, get active, get healthy, many of the issues will go away over the next year or two for a remainder healthy and quality lifestyle.