Thank you for the poll Anthony. It will be interesting to see how people answer, however I suspect already that most will vote for many times. Evie is certainly in that category. I believe I am beginning to see your point!

Still, this is my child, and a mother should not outlive her child. I am becoming less inclined to blame myself, however I still wonder why Brian particularly. Now I am going back to Evie's question about her being alive and Brian dead, why? Or why are you alive Anthony, and Brian dead? A question with no answer. I suppose I am being philosophical now, and that will certainly not help me.