Well Kathy, I certainly am not a believer in God and Jesus, the whole Christian purpose or philosophy, however; I do believe in fate, I do believe in luck, I do believe that everyone has a destiny. We are here for a purpose, what that purpose is, I doubt most will likely know nor understand. Was there a purpose for me not to die? I don't know. Was it to start this forum and help others succeed hopefully easier than what I endured? Not sure. I like to think so, though I cannot say for sure.

Your right Kathy, I don't believe it will help you understand. Is there a reason? Does there need to be one? I do understand what your saying about outliving your son, as I heard my mum say it a lot, and still does today if the topic is raised.

What we know is this though; we are born and we will die. That are two certains, they are two facts. The only problem with the facts, is that we don't have dates of either.

Maybe it is more about living and loving what time we are in this world, and remembering those times we spend with others before they depart this world? I am not sure... just guessing!