Mac, the VA is a joke. All that crap is from what I have seen. My dad, even if I don't talk to him, was a helicopter pilot or gunner (can't remember) and went down, he was a "maddog". He did his fair share of saving buddies and he was pulled from the wreckage and saved too that time. He broke his back. Did not screw him up bad enough where he could never walk again but it is screwed up. They "lost" those records and now say his back was never broken... And I would be beyond pissed at the lack of proper hygeine! Have some frigging respect for the people having to go in there, geeze.

And people don't get when you go through this getting pissed and people treat you in a disrespectful manner they are poking at a hornet's nest. Yes, it can be embarassing for some loved ones... but they love you and will get over it as they learn about the condtion and in time I am sure you will regain control. Hell, you did a wonderful great keeping it under control, you did not hurt anyone! I say you did a wonderful job even if the wife wasn't happy. When I get "upset" in public before I had total rage hit, I was the type that never took crap off anyone. I don't embarass my husband, he laughs about it. I guess he finds it humourous seeing little ole' me buck up to *anybody*. I just look back and laugh when my moods calmed. And half the time I try to figure out how I did not get my ass kicked or shot.

Sorry your day sucked so bad but sometimes getting pissed is just something you do and it does feel sooo good letting it out. And you did it in a good way.