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Old 09-10-2007, 03:35 AM
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Yes the change is quite remarkable. We are more certain than ever that the tumour pressing on the brain was the cause of her terrible rages and also some of the more bizarre hallucinations she was experiencing. Additionally, pressure to that area of the brain causes "persistance of a single thought", which is very in keeping with her previous inability to "let go" of certain issues which were bothering her. For example, she would become angry with certain members upon the forum and the anger lasted for months in spite of her efforts to change it, and she couldn't stop obsessing about her anger. We were quite concerned about that aspect, as we could see she was making every effort to change, yet failing miserably time and again. She had her first consult with the neurologist last week and he feels as we do, that the tumour was the cause of her problems. On Wednesday it will be a month since the surgery, and none of her symptoms have returned! She does still have some anger obviously, but she has much more control over it than previous. She is now able to walk away when a situation bothers her, and she is practicing being assertive with others (rather than aggressive) and to a large extent, she is succeeding! We are so very pleased.

The difficult part for her however, is that the tumour was masking many of her true feelings, such as her pain and grief over Brian's death. With the tumour gone, the natural feelings of sadness and loss have appeared with a vengeance! She is having quite intense feelings of grief over Brian and also over her cancer. She cries every night, and has been having troubles sleeping. Though she is also able to laugh and enjoy herself each day, which is a positive sign that she is grieving in a healthy way and not becoming clinically depressed. The insomnia is a worry however and we have convinced her now to take sleeping tablets for a couple of weeks. She still is quite weak from the cancer and needs all the rest she can get.
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