I am not usually online at this time in the evening, however Evie had quite a nasty spell of flashbacks, vomiting and crying, and she only just fell asleep. It's the first attack like that she's had in quite some time, I would venture to say several months. Perhaps the tumour which was preventing her from feeling grief and happiness was also preventing her from dealing with the trauma? I am uncertain. All I know is, tonight I wish I knew where this flashback came from. We can't ask Evie just yet, she is very difficult to talk to while in this state.

Jim and I suspected something was afoot, as tonight Evie was asking us if we were upset with her. Nothing specific, just, are you upset with me. She then rung Travis and Krista to ask them the same thing, and Rick and likely some other family members. This is a tell tale sign for us, though we hadn't seen it for quite a while, we've learned that just before an "attack" she gets very guilty and paranoid and thinks everyone's cross with her. She was on the forum earlier this evening, and I read her posts, but nothing in them to suggest what caused this. I suppose there needn't be a cause, however I would like to know what triggered it! If it's anything like her past attacks, she will be out of sorts for a couple of days at least, perhaps longer. I am feeling slightly guilty, that maybe I should not have pushed her into the grieving exercises. But then, triggering is good also? I am unsure when it stops being good and starts being harmful. In any event, I am rambling now. Simply worried and feeling a bit guilty I suppose.