:frown: I expected the euphoria of camping with my son and being away for my 52nd birthday to not last for long.....crap!!! seems I misplaced all my meds [base supply in a Pooh box and pillminder too]....missed 3 med times....thought i had brought meds in apt....when getting back in Monday am at 3 thirty....little bit of stuff i got in....no meds....too scared to go back out to van....bad neighborhood....did not know what drug dealing neighbor would be up to....did not want to know...scraps of sleep....got back out late aft. took all stuff in...so had missed am meds....still no meds....at bed...same thoughts about going out again....3rd time no meds...chem system all crapped up!!!...that'll start just after one med miss..... nightmares...terrors...flashbacks....hallucinattio ns....got this got this human-like little creature kicking my cells....can't get that sob to stop!!!!....no one to get gas dollars from to see pschodoc kcept the perp who traumed me....found meds after tossing all trash and upendending pillows and sweter etc.....got meds down....screwed for sometime to come....takes time for chem system to recover....wish it only took 3 med takes to get even....will get bucks later to see psy doc 4 pm...called therapist...got to talk to him 2nd time when i went to leave 2nd message....talks hospital....god....i hear the ward door locking....just not needing that prospect....crazies....oh me oh my......