I've kept up with my reading on the forum but not feeling well enough to post....A week ago I went to my son's wedding 3 and a half hours away....I went Saturday and came home on Monday.....then I collapsed for about three days....Unfortunately I had to ride down with my father [my perpetrator] as I didn't have the $$s to drive myself and my son forgot to set apart the money I would need for gas....My sister and my mom were to go in the same vehicle but for health reasons they didn't go...so that left me alone to deal with his low frustration levels and his emoting about every little thing Then while I was down there I also had to deal with my older brother's low frustration levels and his emoting as well....I enjoyed my son's wedding in spite of them....and even though it was physically painful..I had a slow dance with my son during the reception....almost made it through the entire song...I just wasn't going to the reception and not dance with him As you all know I was off my Remeron and that probably added to my inability to handle all the emoting I was subjected to...I spent as much time as possible as I know that it would help me not to get externally upset.....As it turns out my nervous system took a very stressful beating....so I've not felt very good this week....In my case the overwhelming of my nervous system has affected my physical well being as well....I saw my T on Thursday but I had a hard time getting him to understand the type of pain I was dealing with....his advice was to focus on the good things that happened....I did a lot of that already but the stress to my nervous system was the thing that laid me low this week....I saw my psychodoc yesterday and he totally understood what I was referring to.....Last evening I was feeling very horrible in mind and body.....so I grabbed one of my soft plush bunnies and stroked her a lot as I watched the baseball game [our Cleveland Indians are in the finals and need to win this best out of seven series to advance to the World Series] It was an exciting game.....lots of back and forth over the runs made with each team!!.....I slept till 1:15 today....I am fortunately finally feeling that I've recovered quite a bit!!!! I hope that you all have pleasant dreams tonight!!!KEEPING THE PEACE