Wish I had taken the time to come read the carer section before my PTSD sec post. I can say yes. Apparently as I have to be told when mine happen I do not always express anything. I am just curled up throwing up at times and in the past day or two (I am having so little sleep and enough flashbacks I have lost major time). I have had more flashbacks since my last flashback posting/question. I have disassociated hard but I am so out there I do not fear not coming out. I want out but I am so out I don't fear it if that makes a bit of sense. So I cannot say I really know how bec feels as I only feel fear of it once out... Will I have an attack and not come back question. But back to the flashbacks which are very different you can be in a zone as I call it. You are very unaware and non responsive. I am sure it is horrifying to see. I would be horrified from what is described I do, or don't. What can you do? Let it happen. Once it happens there is nothing that can be done but let it play out. Be there after the fact.

Personally I think the non responsive flashback is better. I forget so much and I just feel the latter emotional drain. Losing time is no fun but IMO it is a lot easier than recalling the trauma and remembering reliving it. Boy it sucks hard.

She has had so much on her plate from the few post I do read of her life so I cannot pin point it. But please know she got a car for her birthday too! This is great right? I am sure she is totally loving it. And it is good stress. Good stress can cause a collapse just as fast as a bad one. You have to add in she probably really wants to drive the bugger out of it and is so happy she has it. Good stress but it still has the same reaction as bad. We just respond that way. So I hope you and other carers see when things are turning for the better we can still respond badly. Look at the stress cup of Anthony's and see what major improvements are going on too and add it to the cup. Everything has to be a snail pace good and bad. Any anniversary? Any unnoticed yellow? What is touching off the emotional response? Just things to think about. Hugs to Evie for me if she can handle it.